I’m typing In Real Time on April 17, 2017 at 1:34pm Central Standard Time. Today’s process is to take this large white box of office-related items I hadn’t unpacked since the Treehouse and unload everything where it needs to be.
I found one of my many composition notebooks, a work I started back in Texas and have yet to reconcile now in Florida. Well, since this composition notebook a novel was written, manuscript created, contents edited and a book was born. It’s intriguing to go back into the manifest stage of this work, I Blew Up Juarez, available currently in digital form but soon to be available in print and audio. I especially love the notes I made to myself about myself in the persuance of artistry. I’m going to type what I wrote in green here, so that this thought process is captured in the 0s and 1s space. I love this notebook for all it represents:
158.1 DYER -> I visited the library in Killeen, Texas and found a book by Wayne Dyer of Hays House Publishing. I don’t think I need to big him up here, he’s doing fine without my accolades, but this work of his spurred the act of actualization on.
The Art of Being Peculiar -> when I Google this, I get a YouTube link. I believe back in 2010/2011 when this composition book was being filled, I was reading a chapter in one of his books. So I feel either this is a title of a chapter, or a title of a blog post. Either way, from here I culled Deep Thoughts.
“I’m here on purpose, I can accomplish anything I desire, and I do it by being in harmony with the all-pervading creative force in the universe” Dr. Dyer
“…the spirit reveals itself to everyone with the same intensity and consistency but only warriors are consistently attuned to such revelations.” Don Juan Matus
Before, I would question the visions and dreams that emerged without pre-planning or bad diet. I stopped making excuses for them and let them be. Exist. There is a story within these images worth learning about. A story about myself that I did not allow be told.
Now I allow them to manifest. The story develops, but the theme is obvious: this is your real self. Free from ego. Free from guilt. Free from the expectation of the world. This is you. This your story. Fall to it.
Detour a bit from the world of tangible, empirical rationale for existence and instead embrace the knowing of one’s Spirit, unbridled, yet bound to the vessel it embodies.
Find comfort in the metaphysical. After all, having reasoned life for the better part of 34 years only proves that academic intelligence is obtainable. There’s nothing to prove anymore. Other than having a chance at existence amongst others is a joy.
‘Choosing to be kind is a choice to have the power of intention active in your life.’
(Dudley’s Dilemma): Awareness is enough. Awareness is satisfying. [Those who] prefer reason and explanation… are consistently unsatisfied with existence.
Source = Universal Truth
I was without friends for a while. In my mirror, I looked empty. Disconnected. I truly find Spirit in engaging with others, obsessing on their life journey, intrigued by their stories and motivated to convert my findings into art.
It is the spiritual connection to other humans that helps me relish life.
If you doubt your ability to create the life you intend, then you’re refusing the power of intention.
Imagination. Fantasy. Daydreams. These aren’t tools for escape; these are tools for expression. And the more often you are caught in this dreamlike state, the more the truth is being revealed to you as to what fits your Spirit best. Surrender to your imagination and find yourself closer to the Ultimate Consciousness.
‘through imagination, God imagines everything into reality’
My intention with ‘I Blew Up Juarez’ is to (re)introduce Spirit to the Digital generation and show how Spirit actively coincides with humanity.
Japa = repetition of the sound of the names of God while simultaneously focusing on what you intend to manifest <Athena & Artemis>
I know myself to be protector of water, sky, and earth.
The ego is the antithesis to intention. One who is driven by ego not only does not recognize intention, but misinterprets its purpose. Although the egoist is convinced of all others’ weakness in comparison to him, he is most weakest for not acknowledging the infinite power of Spirit.
Know what you’re capable of, and live in the bliss of your intention.
When Johnny sets that fire, what was she really intending to do? What was she focused on internally? What you intend to create is based upon what your inner voice focuses on. Was it power? Destruction?
I intend to manifest a life prosperous in art, in friendship and in oneness with this planet. My job is to be; my intentions are to exist blissfully.
I have always been an artist. I have always been creative. What better a road to traverse upon than the one my Spirit skips along?
‘Self-importance is man’s greatest enemy. What weakens him is feeling offended by the deeds and misdeeds of his fellow man. Self-importance requires that one spends most of one’s life offended by something or someone.’
In this notebook is evidence that She is ME.